We have struggled many times through this year..Financially it has been difficult and emotionally it has been draining. We have hit many trials and tribulations this year but have conquered them all. There are still areas of my life I struggle with on a daily basis but I am hoping with the new year will bring new insight on things.
Just days before celebrating Joei's first bday our angel baby, Jaxon, would have been turning 5. Hard to believe it's been that long already. Seems like just yesterday I was praying the ice wld melt so I would be able to make it to the hospital if I had him early.
I am hoping to make some relationships with some family members stronger but realize that I can't make them love me like I do them. Hoping to make some friends that I can count on this year. I am tired of being the friend that is there no matter what and left alone unless something is needed.
With the new year comes a new me. I am DETERMINED to lose weight. I HAVE to, for me and for my children. I will continue to work hard at school and show my boys that it may not be easy but it is worth it. I want to be a better mom to my children and a better wife to my husband. I want to strengthen my walk with God and be the person he has called me to be.
I have decided with this new year, I will no longer work hard at a relationship that I get nothing back from. I've been hurt over and over since I was 6 by my real dad and his family and I refuse to let it be that way in my life with anyone else.
So Happy New Year to all my reader(s)...May God bless you with all you do...
