blessed

Went to church today and loved it! Best church I have visited in Lawton so will definitely be going back next week. I instantly felt at home.

I'm so excited to be getting back into my walk with God. I've been adrift for so long and know that now I will be able to handle things much better. I will be able to be the mom and wife I want to be and that my kids and husband deserve.

We still don't know anything about the job Jeramie applied for bit I'm giving that to God. He will guide us where he wants us to be.

Next thing on my list is me. Working on me. Not just spiritually but mentally, physically and creatively.

I'm ready to get back into school and pursue my culinary career.

I'm ready to get this weight off. It's going to be hard but I can do it!

I have so many creative ideas flowing in my head and I'm so excited! If Jeramie gets this job I will be able to buy a sewing machine and supplies and start working on my creative side :)

I see a whole lifestyle makeover happening and I'm so excited!

So thank you to everyone that follows this blog. You are amazing and I love you!

And if anyone has any pointers to help me pls comment! I'm looking for exercises, devotions, basically anything that will help me become the new me!

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so blessed

I really am a very blessed person. I have an amazing husband, beautiful children and awesome friends. There are times I wish my friendships with some were different but I have to realize I sometimes have high expectations for people when I should just cherish the fact that we are friends.

I do have a handful of people I can truly call my friends but those people I consider my family. I would do anything for my family.

I'm praying that God shows us the path he wants us to take as far as this new job Jeramie has applied for. I'm putting my want aside and praying for his will to be done.

I have let down my guard and removed my grudge I held against people. It takes too much energy to hate people. All I can do is be me. I want there to be peace and positivity in my life. I'm done with the drama and negativity. I'm trying and that's all I can do. But I will protect those I love and will do what I can to make sure they don't get hurt.

I'm trying to find a church home as well. I feel lost and need to become grounded again. I have started doing devotionals in the morning while drinking my coffee and am enjoying it. I want to be a good example for my family.

God has blessed me with an amazing family and amazing friends and I want to be as uplifting to them as I can :)

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friends

I have been struggling lately about friendship and what it means to me. My friends are like my family. But it seems others don't hold friendship as dear as I do. I see friends talking about girls nights and lunches and I wonder why I never get invited out to anything. Why no one ever calls me to hang out, stuff like that. But I know I'm a good friend. Yes sometimes I get taken advantage of and yes it hurts but I won't ever do that to somebody. I have very few friends I realized, I have a lot of acquaintances. But that's ok. One day I will develop that friendship with that special person who will want to do girls night or lunch or something.

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