pitty party...beware

Wow. Lately I just don't wanna get out of bed. How do I keep getting us into situations like this. I know. I spend money. Ugh I wish I would realize what spending money now does to us when bills roll around. Just sucks more now because we have a baby that requires certain things and the boys are almost out of school which means my minuscule grocery bill is about to triple. Great. We do good for a while then slip back into Tue old ways. I just wanna sit and cry. I can't help but feel like if I was working we wouldn't be in this situation. How can I even.think of going back to school right now? That would be selfish. I just want to be able to buy my kids something when they ask and not always have say no. I want them to be able to eat/drink whatever they want and not have to worry if I will have enough to last til we get paid next. I'm sick of this lesson but can't move on from it til I learn how to fix it. It's been a rough 2wks and is going to be a rough next 2wks. Guess I will put on my big girl panties and deal. Pitty party over.

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